I’ve been plagued with imposter syndrome throughout this challenge. I keep expecting the feeling to go away, but it has persisted for two weeks now. I feel like an imposter. I’m having all of this success with actually selling my work and joining a gallery, but I feel like I don’t even know how to paint and therefore don’t deserve it. Did I get too much into my head about painting? I’ve struggled though every single painting so far. I put off painting until the last minute, don’t know where to begin, I’m unsure of my methods, and I’m unsatisfied with each result. Do I need to slow down and reset? Examine my practice and figure out where I’m failing?
I realize it’s normal to feel these feelings of uncertainty, but it doesn’t help very much when I’m alone with a painting, struggling. I know the difficulty will pass and the more I paint the better I will be. I just need to keep painting. This week wasn’t a total loss. I’m really happy with the paintings I did on days 10 and 13. Days 8 and 12 really weren’t too bad either. The difficult days just tend to overshadow the good sometimes.
See you next week with more paintings. 🙂